An American living in Germany. huzzah!

Vesti la giubba from “Pagliacci”—performed here by classic tenor, Mario Lanza. If you’re antsy, skip ahead to 1:38…you’ll recognize the piece. If you’re curious about the context, read below: 

The player: Canio (aka Pagliacci, “the clown”) is the principal actor in some sort of theater troupe—he is an entertainer, responsible for ensuring audiences are delighted at all costs.

The scene: Canio witnesses his wife in a passionate embrace with another man and overhears that she and this mystery lover plan to run away together after the evening’s scheduled performance (rather considerate, all things considered). Feeling a bit overwhelmed and bothered, Canio confronts his wife in an emotional fit of self-pity. However, before things turn code-red, Canio is interrupted by a fellow troupe member, who reminds the clown: the show must go on.

The piece: Vesti la giubba (“put on the costume”) exposes Canio as he struggles to transform into the bubbling, jovial clown expected of his audience and colleagues. Here Canio approaches the moment when he must humiliate himself before an audience as a clown, despite being a man, complete with a heart full of shivering torment.

The story that rings and rings and ringsringsrings

The story that rings and rings and ringsringsrings

Day by day make it new
Cut underbrush
Pile the logs
Keep it growing

— Ezra Pound

die Bachelorette - die Lebensart

The really important kind of freedom involves attention, and awareness, and discipline, and effort, and being able truly to care about other people and to sacrifice for them, over and over, in myriad petty little unsexy ways, every day. That is real freedom.

—Excerpt from David Foster Wallace’s commencement address for Kenyon College back in 2005. Give yourself a solid power-up and read the full speech here.

A heartbreaking video for a gorgeous song

This weekend: my body and mind is ready to return to the city that stole my heart. Mmmhmmmm, girl is ready to feel Berlin again.

Nice words from my mom (love you too)

I was watching Sylvester Stallone on Jimmy Fallon and he said something that made me think of you -
Sylvester Stallone (on writing and staring in Rocky):
“That’s what I love about being young.  You have this fearlessness and you just do it.  You should never hold back even though you’re scared.  That’s how great things are accomplished - by jumping into the fire and not being afraid to get burned a little bit.”
That’s what you do, my fearless one.
Love you


"To be a good human is to have a kind of openness to the world, an ability to trust uncertain things beyond your own control, that can lead you to be shattered in very extreme circumstances for which you were not to blame. That says something very important about the ethical life: that it is based on a trust in the uncertainty, and on a willingness to be exposed. It’s based on being more like a plant than a jewel: something rather fragile, but whose very particular beauty is inseparable from that fragility."
— Martha Nussbaum

A bit of self love

tonight i am happy to love my body, walk around in my apartment in my underpants and long smooth legs, tank top loose with breasts barely covered, care for my hair and see that it reaches the crack of my ass, music in the living room with windows open, music in my bedroom with windows open, i have dimples on my face and butt and maybe some grey hair, i made my thumb bleed and was too impatient to stop the blood so just painted over the wound with clear polish, it stung. my eyebrows are full, my butt is large and strong, i have very blue eyes that are also very large and they come directly from my mother. this is usually the first feature people notice, perhaps next to my big, strong butt, because that’s what it is, then they notice the tattoo on my wrist, also from my mother. maybe they also notice that i am happy to be this person in this body experiencing this moment with open hands and a relaxed smile.

Possibly my favorite video out there in the youtubes

"I have never thought of writing for reputation and honor. What I have in my heart must come out; that is the reason why I compose." - Beethoven

"I have never thought of writing for reputation and honor. What I have in my heart must come out; that is the reason why I compose." - Beethoven

This is a rather impressive man—if you haven’t much time, 4:30 onward is a nice spot to begin watching. 8:30 should most definitely be seen.

Transparency, honesty, kindness, good stewardship, even humor, work in businesses at all times.

—John Gerzema